Something For My Trouble Sometimes there has to be trouble before The bubble pops and the mind sees more Clearly about what the trouble is how It nearly always was but for now Trouble is not troubling me anymore Having passed some sort of test somehow Roughed-up and toughened by enough of it To get what was sent and meant to get A troubling of the mind all the way down To find myself mindful or to drown Having gotten through a lot of regret Learning the hard way not to forget With nothing to prove for better or worse Being approved by the universe To be as transcendental as I can For the rest do the best I can do Withdrawn but not gone and better off than I was before trouble taught me what Is ultimately real from what is not Learning the hard way is turning out Well for me now gone to hell coming through Knowing not to be going again Gone on but not gone going on to grow I always wonder never quite know Looking out for trouble looking for me It took a lot of trouble to be I can see why now it had to be how It was because of how it is now Coming through madness overcoming doubt About my being and doing this Learning it turns out the way out is in Something for my trouble anyway Coming the hard way I might as well stay Wondering under this midnight sky Never mind heaven but heaven knows I Tried not to be but curiously Found myself out of curiosity Being like this too curious to miss Seeing what the trouble was about Steven Curtis Lance