The Ever After of Never Before I I have never liked reality shows The quality of the reality I see seems lacking to me I suppose With a tacky theatricality To its supposed unscriptedness that goes To show its artificiality Inartfully as the artifice grows To be on TV inescapably With dramas traumas and imbroglios Inescapable unreality Foreshadowing something in the shadows Reality becoming hard to see But I was capable of escape or Capably escaped a few shows like those Because I could change the channel before Now living one of those shows heaven knows I want to turn it off and see no more About the emperor and his new clothes This is not even TV anymore Here in the throes of what I never chose I wonder what am I watching this for? Inescapable unreality The emperor has no clothes and it shows This reality show is not for me II The Iron Grandmother used to say Vengeance is mine I will repay Saith the Lord looking right at me As if to say someday you may Be glad you took this personally La vendetta is such a mess And causes so much trouble I guess She knew I could forget and let It get to me and I would regret Not letting something go someday I forgot but I recall I won When all was said and done the one Left standing there at the end of it Who won the hollow victory The Iron Grandmother knew would be She said it better anyway Vengeance is mine is not mine to say III I undertook to go looking for me Not really wanting to but haunted to See if I was and if so what to do I took a look around me and I found I was afraid about what I might see But there was no doubt no way out but in The when of my possibility for The ever after of never before I had to go through a lot to come true A lot to learn and the hard way was how I went through what I was meant to go through Went where I was sent and here I am now With hounds in a Hi-Desert hideaway The long way was not the wrong way around I saw me come true in the life review I saw I was and if so that I knew What to do about it was poetry I saw it was better for me to be And it was better for my having been In the when of my possibility Steven Curtis Lance