To Remember or To Forget
by Erin Elizabeth Kelly-Moen — Read all 1,670 poems by Erin Elizabeth Kelly-Moen
To Remember, Or To Forget
"To my friends on the Pages"
How do people live with
constant battering memories
containing agonizing pain
of mind and body,
seared souls, becoming
husks of wasted lives,
feeling...worthless, dead,
agonizing repeatedly,
living in fear and
consumed by mind’s eye?
Years, decades, eons spent
thinking, dwelling, hiding,
somehow being,
remembering, reliving,
and trying to
deal with each scene,
every painful scrap,
mountains of moments.
Take it out, or have it leap upon you,
scream and thrash,
cry, and shudder
while cringing, devastated,
soul-broken,
from the darkness
of human nature.
I have a memory
of a non-memory.
A Colorado night,
coming out of mountains,
jeep losing brakes, then
nothing.
Moaning woke me up
in a hospital room,
my own moans.
First shock,
of broken pelvis,
surge of agony, disbelief...
how, what? I have never
remembered. A blessing.
A...blessing? Yes, why not.
Why not have some memories
wiped out,
not in an empty way
but with the feeling
of a horrible experience lived
and over, but gone, faded, dissolved,
powerless, now,
to soul’s safety. Lesson
retained, but event
excised.
Why not?
How?
Without losing self?
Becoming self.
Erin Moen
8/12/02
Saturday, December 7, 2002
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Concentrate on things that refresh you like writing and reading.
Well at least that is what I am doing.
Love from India - Joel -
nice write
good questions
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P.S. And I never question your motivation for writing it. I live in a glass house.
and so much more, even your comments bring so much of you with them, what a heart and soul, my friend...no wonder you've been called a gem!