LOSING MY DISGUISE lyrics

I can’t remember what I want to remember
I can't forget what I want to forget
I can’t remember what I imagined
I can’t imagine what comes next

so many years in hiding
so many horses bet
so many jockeys riding
so many secrets kept

but now I’m losing my disguise
I’m losing my disguise
all the puzzle pieces
are falling from my eyes
everybody wears a costume
everybody wears a lie
so it should be no surprise
I’m losing my disguise

I can't understand where I stand
I can't stand what I understand
I can't be where I should have been
I can't have what I can not win

if everything's a dream
it can't be what it seems
and if all is illusion
this must be a delusion

if you can't believe your eyes
you never will be wise
but still you gotta try
until the day you die

tonight I'm going home
if I can find the way
I used to know by heart
but that was yesterday

I prayed to God for freedom
and so he set me free
and after all these years
it wasn't really me

I’m losing my disguise
I’m losing my disguise
all the puzzle pieces
are falling from my eyes
everybody wears a costume
everybody wears a lie
so it should be no surprise
I’m losing my disguise

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