I am trying to be what you need...
It is not fair the way you disown me.
I guess I could never be
what you want..
I am just a genetic link..
An unwanted
memory
left to haunt.
I am not perfect..
though I try to be..
The same blood you have
also runs through me..
All I have
is my unconditional love.
Something you may never know
the value of..
For even in the end of this life..
that you are soon to leave.
You cannot give me
one small piece of your heart ..
unselfishly.
Everything seems to have a cost..
Pay for love
family
friendship
or all is lost.
I am your disappointment ..
The unwanted one.. 
I cannot change what is done..
I never meant
to cause you pain.
I never wanted
to be your shame..
I think
that is
what I am
in your eyes.
I am sorry 
we had to end this way. 
I cannot be your disappointment
another day.
Good bye my father....
May God give you
all you want.
May God give you
all I was not..
May I never be more
than a mist of a memory..
of a small failure
you cannot quite see......
me.