Everyday on my way to work I wear dark sunglasses. My husband tries to talk to me as he sits in the car next to me. When he realizes I知 not listening he says, "What the hell are you thinking about?"
He's right, I知 not listening all I知 seeing ahead of me besides the road I知 driving on is AFL and the words you wrote to her. Then I see the pain the first time I saw them, over and over again, day after day. It felt like my heart stopped beating. I felt like I died. I felt betrayed. I felt alone.
I was so hurt that you didn't write those words to me. That there was someone else in your life that made you love them so much that you could write such beautiful words. And every day on my way to work I see those words flash across my brain and I relive the pain, the realization that you didn't love me that way. But I wear those damn dark sunglasses and then no one but me and now you, knows that behind my sunglasses are tears of knowledge I wish I didn't have.
I知 sorry if my learning the truth hurt you. I love you and only you, but you don't understand that. You don't know that and you can't accept that such a thing can exist. Most important of all, no matter how much you tell me every now and then that you love me; I know that you love her too.
But I love you anyway.
Sara
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Reviewed on December 22, 2003
Ouch Sara! A painful write.....but maybe one you needed to read......Happy Christmas to you, Love, Dani xx
I hope things will improve for you, Sara. Hope he will realize how precious and tolerant you are toward him and hope he will come back to you soon. Many women can relate to the emotions that was expressed in this piece. Much heartfelt indeed.
Sara, sometimes it would be so great to be able to turn back time, just to one special moment so that we can change that one thing that we wish we didn't hear or see. I wish you all the luck in mending things. Lisa
Hi Sara,
Most problems can be solved or changed if we are able to stand back from them, and possibly look at them from a different angle.
I am the last person on earth to give advice, but I found out much too late to help me unfortunately, that the best approach was to consider the problem from the other persons view before considering my own.
In the analysis, I usually found that I was the biggest contributor to the problem.
In addition to that, my problems appeared to evaporate quite quickly when I considered the extent of theirs.
One practical suggestion let your husband drive you to work.
It is the little things in life that count, the big ones are not worth bent nickel.
Big Smile.
Mor.
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Most problems can be solved or changed if we are able to stand back from them, and possibly look at them from a different angle.
I am the last person on earth to give advice, but I found out much too late to help me unfortunately, that the best approach was to consider the problem from the other persons view before considering my own.
In the analysis, I usually found that I was the biggest contributor to the problem.
In addition to that, my problems appeared to evaporate quite quickly when I considered the extent of theirs.
One practical suggestion let your husband drive you to work.
It is the little things in life that count, the big ones are not worth bent nickel.
Big Smile.
Mor.
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