That line about, "No longer hooked on meth," really got my attention. What you are admitting in the late night is, that you have finally reached an age where you won't go back to stupid behavior like that in your quest for self-destruction.
Explains the realizations that have given the author the views of living life fully. The life each person dreams about.
You must take a look at yourself before dreams can be reached.
Deciding what is the core of belief.
Ron
Love ya.
Jane