Overwhelmed

I am eating my feelings again

Choking the f***ers down

Watching I do not choke on my wildest dreams

I sit in panic laced with despair and regret

This pain that wraps around me is crowding and annoying

I feel like I have so much to do

Reading…

Writing…

Living…

Surviving…

And I am trying

But I am failing miserably

I gave thanks for the privilege to see another day this morning

Yet here I am

A pig lying face down in the mud

A dark night longing for the sun

No one around me understands

And for those who do, I feel bad

No one should ever have to live this way

And if you can find or make a way out…

Make the brake

Take the outing

Save yourself

Because I see a poker face staring at me

And he knows how to tear us all down

By,

Tiffany Simar

1/15/18