© 2008 by Barbara Lynn Terry
How Do You Like Me Now?
by Barbara Lynn Terry
You always thought of me
as the son I could never be.
You always wanted me to play
rough and tumble ever day.
You kept telling what a good boy I was
that made me want the puke.
You always told everyone with pride,
"This is my son" and I'd want to hide.
You sent me away when I was twelve,
saying I needed help to delve'
into the masculine ideal
you formed in your mind I should be.
Then you shunned me, disowned me,
and left me to my own devices
to fend off my abusers vices.
Then you let me come back home
thinking I had been helped in a way
that would make me a man.
But what you didn't know, is that
being sent away only made me
stronger and more determined
to achieve my life's goal
to be this girl in me
making my life complete and whole.
It has taken years mother to get to
where I needed to be then,
and now I am on the road that
you tried so hard to destroy.
I live my life now as the woman
I should have been allowed to
grow up to be and I hope that you
can see this is who I have to be.
You tried to destroy this female goal,
so all I have to say to you now is:
How do you like me now, mother?
CarolHawks
In Christs Love
Michelle~
Love Tinka
Believe it or not I can relate to this poem!
Is easy to forgive but so hard to forget
It never stops hurting
But you must give them a second chance,
life is to short, I agreed with Sandie advice!
Peace Love and Light...and hugssss...Morning Star
I still sense a lot of pain and anger in this write. I hope you will sort out your feelings toward your mother soon. Both of you need to compromise one another. Afterall, life is short; and happiness is what we make of it. It is not good to always live in resentment. You are your own person, your mom gave you life, but she doesn't own your life, and your don't owe her explanation for your life. If you two can compromise and at least become friends, life would be so much more enjoyable.
I, myself, had lived through most of my life in resentment because I was sent to live with my grandparent from birth 'til about 7 years old. I always thought that my parents didn't love me, when in fact they did. I only found that out at a much much later on in my life, and time that should have been happy was wasted. It is always nice to have a mom, even if you regard her as a friend, it is okay. My mother was not much of a mother while I was growing up, but as she gets old, we've found valuable friendship in one another. That's what life is all about. Nothing is too late if the person is still alive. Go for it!
Love to you always,
Sandie Angel :o)
Be true to yourself!
God bless,
~Linda
Fee
Regis
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :(