Tearing garbage,diabolical saboteur,
hair in chunks clumped in my own hands,
I am...MY war,
my feelings razor-snares... for me.

Endless beats toward your shadow,
this heart, (traitor to self!)
Muscle from Hell, burn to ash.

Left...left...left,
yet still, it beats.

Gravel fingers cutting chest wall,
frightened hands reaching in,
(mine)tightly grasping culprit,
ripping menace out,
slammed down hard,
demise of love, ruin of me,
(raise the flag of white you fool!)
Still... it beats.

Wrenched out token,coronary broken,
I watch it bleed. Splattered? oh yes,
of dreams in side walk dust.

Ending? Can smoke set free its fire?
or face the place that sets if free?
or turn around to see?

The smoke is me, I try to turn.
The joke is me, I try to burn.
Rising I remember orange
eyes of yesterday,
it burns behind me still,alive.

Future?
A Bone for vulture's feasting.
Vulture? Not US.

Heart still beats, why?
It pounds for you.
Sanity? undone...gone.
Feelings? traitors!

Heart beats drumming,
(bloody scourges every one.)
Let me stamp my foot on heartbeats,
crushing them to ease my pain,
prisoner in a jail of flesh, leave,
just go away.
Light, fall into shadow,
whisper in the dark.
Poisoned kisses,
cannibals inside my brain, eating me.
Wasted? silent mouths.
Mind, brain, I'd...sinking.
My next breath?
A bubble rising as life dies,
a body on waves drowning,
drowning, (smiling now.)
Reach your hands inside some mud
and mix me with wet clay,
mould me fast into a cup,
fill me fill me
fill me up full of wine
for I am but a vessel
a vessel full, yes, I'm.

Spill wine over on my brim
to where his lips sip slow,
and I will turn into a kiss
to on his mouth
...feel whole.