Standing in the shadow of the great sadness reduced by its immenseness
I am frozen by it's frigidity
There is no mercy here
A darkness so consuming
It tries to own me
Realizing that the quicksand in which I am stuck can end me, I awaken
Unable to move
Ability to describe the great sadness does not remove it
Nor does it release me from it's power to destroy me
Perhaps awareness will aid me in taking the first steps towards freedom.
Here in this void I cannot see myself...trust myself
Here in this abode
I fight back relentlessly because I am a Warrior Queen...my only gift
Battling what I cannot see
Squelching the screaming of my heart
Wears me to the bone.
The great sadness is as hard as rock
The escape will come only when it does
I will be ready...and steadfast
Nothing can stop me but me
Nothing can hurt me but me
Nothing can heal me but me
Nothing is just...nothing
In this madness... nothing is everything
Ron