So long ago, you said that you fell, melded eyes and promises crossed

I never felt a desire so strong, when you touched me bewildered and lost

So I left me behind, I put me away, my dreams and what I could be.

 And now you just stand with the door in your hand, and the floor is all I can see.

I can’t understand how I lost me to you

I can’t get back all those years

I can’t understand how I let it fall through

When you washed yourself clean in my tears

What was it in me, the love that I gave the time and unselfish devotion?

That seems to now have a destruction of us careening in fast forward motion.

I gave up a life that just was beginning, a light I never had known.

You shelved me till needed, all the while riding high upon your throne.

I can’t understand how I lost me to you

I can’t understand the lost years

I can’t understand how I let it fall through

When you washed yourself clean in my tears

 So go on and walk, Take all that you stole, cause there’s one thing you neglected to do

To kill the one talent I hid all this time, the power to start over new

I’ll find me again; I’m out there somewhere and get back what I started to be

 Someday a place, a song or a touch, will remind you lost the best me.   

I can’t understand how I lost me to you.

I can’t understand the lost years.

I can’t understand how I let it fall through.

When you washed yourself clean in my tears

So here I stand, clear eyed, soaked in wonder, scared that one step will miss.

But the time is now to slide out from under; I owe the world this new kiss.

I now understand how I lost me to you.

I can’t get back all those years

I can understand how I let it fall through.

I let you wash yourself clean in my tears

I now understand how I lost me to you.

I can get back all those years.

I can understand how I let it fall through.

By letting go of the puppeteer

 So here I stand, clear eyed, wrapped in wonder, scared that one step will miss.

But the time is now to slide out from under; I owe the world a new kiss.

I can keep my head up toward the sky, never leave it as it seems

You are not here for the profit of anyone but your own dreams.

By: K. Mulroney 

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