I remember her hand in mine
and how we used to kiss .
How did my wife who once loved me
ever become like this .
When I close my eyes I can still see my beautiful bride .
God help me to walk away .
Heal the rejection inside .
God forgive her for the hurt that she has inflicted .
Once bitten,twice smitten ,
everything seems so wicked .
How sad .
How confusing for the children ,
Why cruelty survives and all of the innocence destroyed in so many lives .
Empty words have become lies
and not vows that we once made .
Their love lost justifies the cost of a marriage in the grave.
Broken hearts do mend in time and I know mine will too .
Life goes on and where two beacme one now become two .
You brought us together and now is this what you have planned ?
Dear God is their any justice .
I cannot understand .
Why good husbands and fathers have leave their family.
Dear Lord remember the betrayal of a Judas kiss ?
Dear God I am trying to see your hand at work in this .
I reach out .
I cannot see.
Lord help me .
I konw not why .
I close my eyes .
I cry .
I open ny heart .
Goodbye .
This was exactly my experience almost 6 years ago.
The next poem I post will be about this- still writing about it 6 years later.
You and I did not make any mistakes. We just suffered loss, as so many do.
That is my consolation. I didn't fly the plane drunk, just have to crawl out of the wreckage.
A book-length psychodynamic study of pathological narcissism, relationships
with abusive narcissists, and the Narcissistic Personality Disorder, using a new vocabulary.
Its not for wimps this kind of stuff .
Write on .
Regards from Paul
The next poem I post will be about this- still writing about it 6 years later.
You and I did not make any mistakes. We just suffered loss, as so many do.
That is my consolation. I didn't fly the plane drunk, just have to crawl out of the wreckage.
John