then but now When telling me to shut up failed to work My father tried to kill me with his fork At the table but was not able to Because my mother was able to do What a mother does and was impaled instead Unsuccessful killing his successor But she recovered what I never did I would recall it all could not get rid Of that and the rest he did that we hid Never mind forgiving so forgetting Getting on with living though regretting The aggrieved surviving the aggressor And I am alive and they are both dead When the dead live among the living now The dying are trying to live somehow Without looking back with enough ahead To worry about to be sorry when Trying not to dying but living too Leaving the dead for the living to be What I should if I could I would be free At last from the past for the life of me My mother and the others left behind When my father felt like killing again Who lost it all who could not get away He was more successful with others then Brothers I lost before losing my mind With no tomorrow only yesterday But after it cost it all to recall Somehow I win now by losing it all Yesterday lived down then up for today When living or dying to anyway Losing but choosing what to live without Giving it away then trying to say That was yesterday and this is today Such as it is much as it is for anyone Though what was done would never be undone Forever yesterday then but now has begun An ever flowing river growing downstream To never end wherever it may wend its way Because it turns out this was all a dream about The river the giver the stream of the dream That was yesterday then but now this is today +Steven Curtis Lance Copyright MMXII