You are a very sensitive soul it's why it plagues you so much...
We have all made mistakes and hurt others either intentionally or
unintentionally... it is part of being human... You can't change or
continue to beat yourself up for this what is done is done and what happened has happened and we all grow from learning... So STOP keeping yourself in depression unless you just happen to like it there. Somehow I don't think you do... Just know ALL of US here understand, there is nothing to forgive it was all learning, just let YOUR nightmare go and give yourself the freedom you deserve. You have unjustly punished yourself enough! Now don't get me going! Or I might
have to make a trek to NJ to kick your skinny backside :)

Love and Light
Lily

As Annabel says, you are never alone Ed, there are many more out there. Do take care.
Rose

Sorry to hear that. I hope that you do find peace in any way that you can.

Ron

We all have demons in our past...but everything that's happened (good or bad) over a lifetime contributes to making us who we are today...you're NEVER alone with this way of thinking, my friend...the thing is the past is history....

Anna

You got some real good advice from all your friends, now don't add another mistake and do yourself in, just throw a few rocks at yourself from arm lengths distance that will do, ok, bless ya.

Ed,

There's no one who don't have regrets for past mistakes. Look to the future, we can't go back and change the past. God bless.

Many blessings,
+Linda

How do you forgive? Live in the now and remember your only human. Perfection would put you on the other side.............. If you do something stupid I am going to kick your ass all the way through the astral field!

About 65% of the world population feels the same, Ed.

We all have ghosts in our pasts which show themselves at times. That's when we must get busy and do something in the here and now even if it means taking a walk around your digs. I'm sure HE will look much more kindly upon you than you do yourself!

Love ya!

Jane

Again, I should have written this. BUT, that is why we write, to get some of it out temporarily. You just wait your turn, and always get back to the one true friend-nature. It helps for a while.
L

HAUNTING ??? MEMORIES? NIGHTMARES?

DISCRETIONS? HURTS? MISTAKES?

SHIT... BUNKY... WE ALL HAVE THOSE !!!

JUST PART OF BEING HUMAN BEANS !!!

SO... LIGHTEN UP... BEE-UTCH !!!

PAX DOMINE SIT SEMPER VOBISCUM !!!

LOOK THAT UP IN YER FRIGGIN FUNK & WAGNALL'S !!!

CUZ CUR... THE ONE-ETH ...