I have come to the realization things may not have appeared as they were
Feelings rage with emotional spat
in anger— at him The Manipulator with his falsified words which came from a dictionary
(oh how wisely I see now)
in anger— at me the doll placed on his shelf played with, toyed and isolated
But things were not as he wanted I didn’t b-e-n-d in certain ways— my arms didn’t reach outward, my fingers only touch the surface and my mind— that was my own.
Unbendable I killed his dream and filled my pen with bitter remorse
my feelings exactly Tracey. When my mother sent me away because she couldn't handle a transsexual child, I refused to allow myslef to be taken into the arms of the manipulator. I refused to allow myself to feel pity for myslef, while the manipulator kept me in his clutches. I refused to allow myself to be forced into living a lie. I have always been true to myself, and I have always been me. I put my bitter remorese on paper and screen, and in doing so, I have killed the dream of the manipulator to make me someone I never could be.
Thnx for sharing sis, this is so heartfelt, so soulful and emotional.
May the Lord Jesus bless you, and those whom you love, and be with you always, and at your side constantly. With much love in my heart, joy to the world, peace on earth, & ((((((((((MANY WONDERFUL SISTERLY HUGGGGSSSS))))))))), your little sister, Barbie
"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."
Being ones own person is a wonderful trait. There are too many puppets in this world ready to dance at the pull of a string. Excellent write, my friend.
I concur with Jerry, damn fine writing. Excellent, you set the mood from the opening lines and continued throughout.
(((HUGS))) and love, Karla.
Reviewed by Jerry Bolton (Reader)
Reviewed on February 2, 2006
Damn good writing here, Tracey. You let the anger flow, but without upfront rancor, then . . . haha . . . at the end you gave your condolences. Fantastic! is what I'm saying.
Rovella is a beautiful woman with a cold heart whom blames herself for an unfortunate old family secret that is literally ruining her life. This secret impedes a gorgeous woman from having happiness in her childhood, and throughout her life. Dark sec
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Thnx for sharing sis, this is so heartfelt, so soulful and emotional.
May the Lord Jesus bless you, and those whom you love, and be with you always, and at your side constantly. With much love in my heart, joy to the world, peace on earth, & ((((((((((MANY WONDERFUL SISTERLY HUGGGGSSSS))))))))), your little sister, Barbie
"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."
the last line most powerful!!
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there also. Excellent Tracey!
Being ones own person is a wonderful trait. There are too many puppets in this world ready to dance at the pull of a string. Excellent write, my friend.
Thanks for sharing, it is incredible the way you have captured this topic!Kudo's!
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(((HUGS))) and love, Karla.