Sometimes Feel Broken…

Not like a toy, as that can be fixed,

Sometimes I feel just so much nixed,

Not so important, not able to mix,

With someone I feel close to, at least for now…

Am told a visit is to ensue,

At least when a certain other said that,

They showed up, they were there, in lieu,

Maybe that persons name might even be sue,

But that is just what I feel; I need to get this out,

Another certain person that brought on this feeling,

Will certainly be angry, or just as close or just about…

But life is a bitch, I guess I can survive; I have done so before,

Maybe to just let go, and go back to the old me,

Don’t allow love and happiness into my life,

As I used to feel that I did not deserve,

Just let me live my life of strife, and end it when I felt,

Or do what I want to do…

Kneel only when I knelt,

Steal only when I stole,

Live my life, for me alone,

No Rufuz, no rene, no me to feel apart blown…

I cannot lose Rufuz I am afraid, it would break his heart,

It would do the same to mine, as I have loved him from the start,

But it seems that if I had the wherewithal, I would be traveling,

Away from here, far, so far would I go, staying in parking lots,

Belonging to wal-mart, K-mart, and such, just to get away,

I am so tired of being told one thing then something else happening,

Let me tell you herein, I mean what I say…

                   © ed – 4/29/04