Are You Human, too?

I keep swallowing down this suicide
I keep choking on my pain
I cut myself while grasping at straws
As I watch my life dwindle away
Did you ever really know me?
Did you ever really care?
I'm just another f*** up
Living in despair
The day by day routine of life eats at my very core
And when I try to evolve myself
I get labeled as a whore
To speak my mind makes me a bitch
To be silent 
A coward I am
To walk away may make me stronger
Until I fall flat on my face again
To be fat makes me a heifer 
To be skinny means I'm on drugs
To be in between is boring
To hang with different races makes me a thug
I am a sinner if I am anxious
A basket case if I cry
I will be judged every single day of my existence
And spit upon when I die
I am an America
A human
I am from another country
Black or white
I'm your next door neighbor
Your husband or your wife
I'm a child playing pretend
While ghosts haunt me at every turn
I touch a stove as a reminder
That I love to feel the burn
Have you ever felt as I do?
For I am surely not the only one
Speak now or forever stand in silence
Never knowing what you are worth
For to admit you are human is valor
To deny your human existence is living in vain
I pray you find yourself
Deep within these words
For I did not write them for nothing
They are all of what I am worth!

By, Tiffany Simar 
12/20/16