What is this I feel fading slowly
the profound pressure of beauty murdered
bleeding continually
how long before it's gone forever
you created the wound
bled the flesh to suit your ends
and now I don't know what to do
I just watch helplessly as
faith, it dies.

I listen to their words and try to feel it again
read those lines and try to hear Him
I rage at the sky and scream at nothing
but it's just gone
I tell myself what I believe but inside
my mind laughs at me
my heart wants to think it's all true
but my head is turning hysterical as
faith, it dies.

Something in me wants to believe there's hope
that one day I'll just wake up and be whole
what if I'm right and all of this was a joke?
what if I'm wrong and I burn in hell for eternity?
I want to stay in it just in case
because if that is the way then I'm heading straight down
this way of thinking has infected me
and I think the war within will eventually kill me
because where do you turn
God or Satan, Man or Self
when your faith in each and every one has failed?