He talks this one,
So much like my old friend,
So many words are the same,
And I want to believe him,
Yet fear that truth,
That lies in my heart
Like a stone…

Shall I flee his open hand?
And soft words,
His eyes which haunt me,
With their beauty and depth...
I do not know,
Feel only such fear,
That I want to flee,
Not hear him call…

Yet when he comes,
I am drawn to him,
Wondering if this time,
It will be different,
Dare I open that heart?
Sealed so well?

He asks me to call,
Despite that I tell him,
I cannot speak,
Cannot get a whisper
Around the knot in my throat,
And my mind is wild,
With racing thoughts,
How will I untangle,
This terrible knot?

I try to dial,
But my fingers won’t work,
Keep missing the numbers,
And almost give up…
But I want to be strong,
Prove I can do this,
And somehow the phone is ringing,
And he is repeating…

Hello. Hello...
Is it you?
Say your name….
But I can’t,
My mind is gone,
And I don’t know who I am…
I hang up the phone,
And try to leave,
But he is typing
Please, please
Try again…

What’s wrong with me?
He is just a man!
Kind and good...
I don’t understand!
Why am I so afraid?
I remember his voice,
Saying through my fear,
Talk, talk, is it you?
Don’t be afraid,
Say your name….

The phone is in my hand again,
And I hear it ringing,
Suddenly
I hear his soft voice,
He sounds so sweet,
Like birds singing-
I love his voice,
I want to hear more,
But my heart is pounding too loud,
And I am mute,

Still his voice reaches pass my fear,
And I answer him softly,
“I am here...”
He says then,
Are we not friends?
Say hello,
I want to hear your name,
But suddenly
I don’t know,
Why am I doing this again?
I really don’t need a friend,
Everything is fine,
But he says,
“I want you to be mine,
Someone to share my dreams,
Listen to me cry,
And all I can think of,
Is why…

Why me?
Why wake me from my sleep?
I don’t want to weep anymore,
I don’t want to open that door!
But he is speaking
In a voice so sweet,
Saying Darling,
I wish we could meet-
We can still be friends,
Don’t be afraid,
Just speak!

My hands are trembling,
And my voice is weak,
But my friend is pinching me,
Telling me to say hello!
I whisper into the phone,
Wondering if he can hear,
For my voice is so low…

I don’t know what to say,
So I whisper,
“Hey,
It’s me…”

He talks then,
Of many things,
And I see him in my mind,
He is so good,
So very kind,
And suddenly,
I don’t mind,
I sit here forever,
And listen to him talk…
My heart is fluttering,
And I am so alive,
I feel so happy,
I am finally laughing!

Too soon its time to go,
And I whisper once more,
“Hello, my friend,
I have to say good-bye,
But I know in my heart,
It’s not the end,
Suddenly I have a new friend…