*written in Collaboration with Silent Cries of Firesidepoetry.com

The Reality in Dreams





It's eating me alive
This pain inside...
Leaving me
Needing to bleed,
Cut right through
To my heart
And watch it drain out
Cold black blood

Watch it flow,
Like a river,
Down the front of my gown,
Your harsh words,
Ringing in my ears,
I trace pretty symbols
On my skin,
How lovely they look
How real,
Far more real than me…

More real for even my dreams
My dark dreams where everything is more than real
Where I swim in my insect infested blood-

They help trace the symbols as well
When I cut a wound,
And let them crawl in
Thinking of you
Wanting them to continue crawling
To my heart and eat it out,

As they pass through,
Each one takes a memory of you,
Then at last you are gone,
Nothing remaining except the dawn,
And an empty heart,
Bones with the marrow eaten away,
Greeting the new day…

I lay here
Staring into the dark abyss
That only exists
Deep in my mind
Where you.... once lived
It’s cold today…
It’s not only you they ate away
But everything I knew
Every thing that wasn’t even,
A part of you…

Even the blood that once flowed
So freely has stopped,
And the moon,
The moon how she glows!
Smiling down at me,
Now I see,
It was never death I feared,
It was me…