When I reached for you, you seemed so elusive
Hiding behind leaves that dance
and in between light and dark

So often...
I cried out for you with the yearning
of a lone siren at sea
Wet hair whipping my face
Eyes salty with desire
Longing in my song
Drowning in each breath of air.
that filled my lungs with tongues of fire

You crashed against my rocks
Cast your identity upon my sand
The bubbles burst
but left their intricate patterns behind

I told myself to 'You can do it!'
Set my shoulder to the rusted wheel
Pressed in hard, pushed forward
tied knots in my thoughts
so I could unearth how I feel
I tapped symbols on a keyboard
Morse in dots and dashes
Creative processes in a code
not many would understand.

I wrote of love and of passion
and the pain I have known
   Then I cut through the delicate fabric,
and dewed up those emotions
that once brought me to my knees
And yet,
Through the tapestry of stitches,
my life still bleeds

  l am calling out for you again
This time with confidence
An excited child, trembling
on a ledge high above the world
wanting to take the leap
while still afraid to fall.

Tell me I have wings and can fly
Take me up in your currents
wrap me in your arms of sky
and lead me to the edge, over
and back again

Finally,
I'm ready for you
Now come to me,
  'My inspiration'.

© Chanti 2009