Ed, I'm so deeply sorry for what you've been through and still experience in memories. Find some good people who love you to spend Christmas with. There are always volunteers needed at shelters where they feed the hungry. Blessings to you, My Friend.

The key is in the moment. The past is a broken clock; to move on, we need to rewind that clock and move in synchronicity with it.

The past is not your fault - just because someone is born in the same family has no relevance to whoever you choose to like

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Sending you best wishes and prayers, Ed. Love and peace to you,

Regis. 🙏⛄🍁

This is the first time I have heard you mention cocaine. That white powder is a big deceiver. While it makes you feel powerful and creative, that is only a fleeting gesture. Your output, while you think it is voluminous and great, is only as good as your best sober work.

And the insidious nature of this opiate is its ability to bring you down into the worst depths of your existence. I've known several people addicted who died. The rest, like you recovered but were no longer able to really fend for themselves in society and required family or government help to keep off the streets.

No wonder you have no passion for writing anymore. You probably never did in the first place.

Ron

Ed, I share in your pain. I too have had severe sufferings you can't imagine and this time of year is the hardest you could ever believe. However what i found is taking that pain and helping others has greatly diminished mine. All I know is Jesus Christ, the light of the world is my strength and only hope because He gives no pain, He's only acceptance and love. With that I can endure heartbreak, cancer and rejection. Hope your day is brighter than bright because of our only hope in His suffering which was so great