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I ONCE ...
by Tom poesyco.th@gmail.com → (All Poetry by Tom poesyco.th@gmail.com)
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And still yet another Non-Poem ... still, yet another Search ... "TRUTH - Where Is Thy Sting?"

I ONCE ... © - Tom Hyland - 8/3/10 I ONCE ... Was a Catholic ... Born and Bred - Baptized - Confirmed - Married - Raised Two Kids in the Faith. As an Adult - Sang in a Choir for Sixteen Years! Made ‘A Joyful Noise Unto The Lord!’ Went to Mass - Went to Communion - Was a Good Christian - ‘Did Unto Others’ But - Became ‘Lost.’ I ONCE ... Was a Believer ... Read ‘The Good Book’ - Prayed Fervently - Mostly for Others - Gave Good Example - Tried To Be Humble - Turned The Other Cheek - Prayed Some More - But - To No Avail. I ONCE ... Developed Specific Affirmations - Said Them Each And Every Night - Along With - And Intermingled With - My Prayers - For Years - And Years - And Years! ALAS - Was Anyone Really Listening? I ONCE ... Gave Counsel To Others - Consoled - And - Cajoled - And - Commiserated - Gave Eulogies At Funerals - Compassionately Told Others That - “God Needed Another Angel in Heaven!” Maybe even A ‘Guardian Angel’? I ONCE ... Believed in Them Too! But - If The Deceased Was a ‘Good Person’ - Then - Why Did His/Her Guardian Angel - Not Do Such A Good Job? I ONCE ... Watched The Movie ‘The Secret’ - Over - And Over - And Over - It All Sounded Great! I Edited - Changed - Added Affirmations - Repeated Them Every Night Faithfully - Until They Became - ‘Rote Memory’ - But - Nothing Happened! Nothing Changed! In Fact - Several Things Got Worse! Was it Me? Were My Intentions Invalid? Just Recently - It Dawned On Me - WHAT IF ... It Is All Just - ‘Wishful Thinking’? Prayers? Pleas? Affirmations? Desire To Succeed - And Help Others? Was Not My Purpose Pure? “God Helps Those Who Help Themselves!” “God Is Great! God Is Good! - Let Us Thank Him For Our Food!” AMEN? I ONCE ... Was Patient - Was Kind - Was Remorseful - “Mea Culpa - Mea Culpa - Mea Maxima Culpa!’ The ‘Our Father’ - The ‘Ave Maria’ - The ‘Holy Rosary’ - The ‘Confiteor’ - The ‘Apostles’ Creed’ - Is Anyone - ‘Out There’? I ONCE ... Believed - On Blind Faith - Now - I Question - Am I An Agnostic? I Do Not Want To Be An Atheist! But - This Month - I Shall be Seventy! Was It All - In Vain? NOTE: Dear Readers - I Am Not Despondent! I Am Not Depressed! I Am A Tad Disturbed! I Am a Bit Perturbed! I Am Definitely Disappointed! BUT: Like ‘The Man’ Said: “This Too Shall Pass!” © - TKH. P.S. Please don't give me that Crapola that: "You'll get your Reward in Heaven!" I'm Way Past That! ... The 'BAD GUYS' get it Now! Here! Every Day!

Reviewed by John Domino

Reviewed on August 11, 2010

It's a great circle of acomplishments that you have here.

I am at peace where I am with Christ.

I hope you are at peace with youself today.

If not then I don't need to say a word.

Amen my friend.

Reviewed by jude forese

Reviewed on August 8, 2010

"i find that when i pray, i'm talking to myself" ...

Reviewed by J'nia Fowler

Reviewed on August 6, 2010

I think that the fact that you ask these questions suggests to me that you are seeking to understand the mind of God. No platitudes from me my friend. We'll both keep on seeking. Hugs, J'nia

Reviewed by John Coppolella

Reviewed on August 4, 2010

Good questions. Tom. Fair enough. God will answer for himself. You know there is more to this story than meets the eye. Keep challenging him. I like your honesty portrayed here. Nothing wrong with you, Tom. You have been sold a bill of goods by those who would control you and brainwash you. However, it was not God that did this. Then who was it? Who was it?

Reviewed by Karen Palumbo

Okay, I won't even considering saying it to you, but I will say that God works in strange ways. Allow your "id" to slow down just a bit and have faith, please? Looking good Tom...

Be always safe,
Karen

Reviewed by Ed Matlack

Like ‘The Man’ Said:

“This Too Shall Pass!”

Theres your problem, you're listening to "the man", though I know what your feeling, as throughout my whole life I was always searching for something, God, Buddha, someone or something...I'd like to think I have re-found it, but there are times like through all my recent pain and earthly torture that I still didn't believe...I am trying now, but it is still NOT easy...good write, & look at that picture, enough to make me sick...LOL, ed

Reviewed by Donna Chandler

You are not along in your struggles to believe or not believe. Our world is on a scary path. Is it God's fault? Some say yes. I don't know but I still hold out hope that there truly is a 'savior'.

Donna

Reviewed by Mr. Ed

I Am A Tad Disturbed!
I Am a Bit Perturbed!
I Am Definitely Disappointed!

I hear ya, Pal. I'm very disturbed, perturbed, and highly disappointed in mankind these sad days. I still believe in God, but these days I seem to find Him out in nature and in all sorts of animals, not in my fellow men, or in their pompous, man-made churches.