* I wrote this, because someone keeps buggin me to " let them in*, I write, what I cannot say...*

Once, so long ago,
I gave someone my heart,
And they knocked it off the shelf,
It fell to the floor.
And I thought,
I will never love anymore…

Then the childhood fancies passed,
And I fell for someone new-
And he made the same promises,
As you…

Our love grew and fostered such hope!
But then something happened,
That pushed us apart,
And I was sent back to start
All over again,
Feeling like I would never
Find a friend…

I withdrew,
Never knew
The joy of loving,
And having love returned,
I was too scarred and burned,
To take another turn…

Then you came,
And promised me such sweet things,
That you had hope and friendship,
You could bring,
And you swore to me,
That you would never leave…

I didn’t want to believe you,
I never wanted to trust again,
But you promised to be a friend,
Something I had missed,
For so many years,
Having someone to share my joy,
And my fears…

So we played your game,
I even let you know my name,
Something I never shared with anyone,
Except you-

And got used,
Got played,
Realize now,
I never should have came…

How stupid of me to think,
The outside world was real,
Better to have stayed here,
Behind my shield,

You killed me,
More than once,
For I was dumb enough,
To give you a second chance,
And you did it again,
And I now I am hid,
And shall never reveal myself to anyone,
Not friend, nor foe,
Shall know,
Where I am…

I have returned to where
I came from,
And my mountain is so high,
Should you try to find me,
You will die,
For you cannot breathe the air here,
And I will never go there-

You cannot hear my music here,
For your ears are deaf
To the songs the trees play,
And you cannot listen,
To what they say…

I shall never sing to you again,
And give thanks to the gods,
That you never understood anyway…

You can not see here,
Your eyes are blind to the truth
And beauty that surrounds me,
And I will never show you
My world again,
And I give thanks to my Gods everyday,
For never letting me
Show you the way…

I need you to stop now,
I need you to go away.
I need you to know,
It was never me you loved anyway…

Just someone you thought you knew,
And it was never true ,
It was never me you loved,
It was you.

And I?

I shall never love again…