Blogs by Cynth'ya Lewis Reed
Crucible
12/9/2010 9:50:08 PM
As I look back over my life...it's amazing what one learns the longer one lives when one is open.
As a writer, I often wake up, never looking at the clock, start writing and find that I complete a majority of my poems “AT EXACTLY 2:22.” If I wake up in the middle of the night, pre-dawn, and may just decide to do the last few dishes that are in the sink, I’ll have my hands in the water, and a thought comes. I’ll stop, dry my hands, and look at the clock. Again: 2:22 and always in the a.m. Never 2:22 p.m. ever at all!
First thing in the morning, I’ll go to the WC. It’s exactly center, with no windows…there are water sources (obviously). When I wash my face, I get strong ideas and keep writing paper and a ton of pens in there. (It think I have more pens in the WC than bath towels! LOL)
When I shower, especially when water is running over my head covering my entire body awash, I get ideas, or certain spiritual “church” songs. Sometimes they are songs that my grandmother would sing. We were close her whole life as if we were so inner connected. When she passed it was very hard for me…but she was at peace, and at 96 no way will I whine over not having her in my life physically realm-wise.
But I keep her nametag from the nursing home on my computer keyboard. And it’s like she’s still there. Hard to explain, but I feel totally at peace and accepted within MYSELF. No longer do I really stress over what others may or may not think of me.
My birthdate ( consisting of 3 digits, 1 3 and 9) also shows up when I have a deep thought or idea, of if there is someone on my mind that I need to call, the 1, the 3 and the 9 combined also pops up… a LOT. My birthweight 6:12 also shows up, not as often. But the nice thing is that I’m not afraid of it. The year before I married I was in a coma.
At the time I was trying to do things to please everyone except myself. School, sorority, parental wishes, being in a major that I did not want to be in caused me to be under such tremendous stress my nervous system shut down. However the neat thing about it, is that things that have not yet occured materially are seen in my dreams sometimes. And when they happen, it’s as if I’ve been there before.
One of my most cherished bible verses is on faith in Hebrews, which happens to be chapter 11, verse 1. (111). Spiritual things are never to be explained with physical analogies. God’s gotta keep SOME secrets to the universe (smile). Makes life’s “God-incidences” so much more interesting. Makes life an adventure of faith and belief every day.
cynth'ya
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