No where near here,

For some reason the holidays

Bring on in me some level of fear…

What memories do lurk,

In the dark recesses of my mind,

Those that may represent my holiday season berserk,

Or is it just something from within, like a quirk…?

Not even therapy can alleviate this emotion,

Not even speaking to the gods of the Atlantic ocean,

Nothing seems able to adequately relieve this feeling of dread,

Wonder if I will lose it even when that day comes for me to be dead…?

© ed ~ 11/21/05