Blissful sleep doesn't come as easily as it once did,  I remember how sweet it was when I was just a kid

My eyes hurt, as if there's sawdust between the lids,  now it doesn't seem to be just when I go to bed.

The knees ache and the back breaks so bad it hurts to walk,  maybe to the doctor I'll go and have a talk, 

But I know she will only say "remember, your no longer just a kid" and then she'll advise me to use a cane when I take a walk.

Looking through my eyes, I can't focus anymore,  it's as if a film covers them and makes them very sore and this really aggrevates even more

As if seeing through a looking glass wondering if what I see is true , it's easier to just close my eyes, maybe than I won't feel so darn blue

Now if only my head would behave the way it use to do, instead of when I start to talk so many hurtful words I spew. 

This isn't the real me talking, saying all these nasty things I do, I just want to be my old self, I really wish I could, I don't want to say these hurtful things, especially to you.