I thought love was suppose to be happy
Instead I find myself madly in love
And absolutely smothered in fear

Last night
your arms
became the entirety of the world

I drove for hours on a long, dark, lonely highway
My eyes pulsing out each sleepless hour
My heart pulsing out each mile passed
Crazy, crazy, crazy
How crazy am I to go to the ends of time for you

I walked up a strange pathway in a strange place
only to find myself in the only home I've known
as
soon
as

you opened your door.

With each baby-soft press of your lips to my skin
I reminded myself of your words
"It's painfully obvious...."
(that you love me?)

Those hands
(I love them so very much)
whispered the words on my skin
your entire body hummed and vibrated with them

Your lips
Oh Dear God
those lips
danced a tango of unsaid vows on mine

And I thought
He must
He must love me

But you won't--
or you can't say it
You just look at me in that way of yours
And I just melt all over again
I listen to the tears pour out their wisdom
each time your smell
your touch
your skin
enraptures me again

When morning comes
You kiss my forehead and walk out
And the accursed sunshine lays shame
to all my silly dreams

What a fool I was to think love was happy
It is exquisite
It is an addiction
It is beautiful
It is making love to you

It is the ultimate pain.