what am I suppose to do with this anger
there should be no room in this heart for such purity
only the cluttered mess of love and confusion
but now it is all so obvious and clearly drawn out

youre right there beside me with your eyes glued to the television
with absolutely no idea what an epiphany I've just had
what a horrid discovery I have made
I wonder if you see her when you look at me
I wonder if you think of her when you're with me
I wonder if she's reached deep within you and stirred your contents
mixed you all up, changed your ideas, rearranged your prejudices
I wonder if she makes you happy
or is she just your quick fix when I get boring

forgive me if i find it hard to swallow your lies anymore
I dont believe that I'm the biggest part of your life
I dont believe that I make a difference in you
I believe you still smother yourself with pain
you still sheild yourself with indifference
but you are afraid to lose me
because it will make you feel worse about yourself
you couldn't stand to lose your trophy could you

ask me why I'm sitting here next to you still
calmly watching you entertain yourself
my eyes tracing and memorizing your profile...
and I wont have an answer
oh I'll leave dont get me wrong
this is just the beginning of a long hard end for me
but I dont know I will find the courage to willfully...
knowingly... submit myself to the torture of never seeing you again
never touching you, smelling you, kissing you

you have become my world
but I was a fool to let you decieve me
making me think this world was beautiful...
full of sweet-smelling flowers and sunshine
your world is dark and secretive
and now I only wait for the day
when I have the strength to run away.