Just My Thoughts today...March 18, 2007 3/18/2007 6:37:38 PM
I am so happy for my married friends…couples who are so happy together after many years. Yet, there are times when I see them being so loving, and in love, and affectionate that it kind of hurts my heart to never have had that kind of love.
Today I was sitting quietly on my front porch in the sunshine. Then I saw my neighbors (friends) who live a few doors down, heading off for a walk with their children. The couple were holding hands, which I have never seen them do before…holding hands I mean. I was so thrilled to see them do that. But I suddenly had to come inside because I could not bear to see it any longer. It made me feel lonely.
It did remind me of someone I met a long time ago. We never dated, but saw each other a few times. I remember one particular time when I had been to visit him. I had earlier been to see an elderly lady friend of mine in a nursing home. It was so sad to see some of these people in there, and what a sad way to spend your remaining time on this earth.
When I got to “his” house for a visit, he took me in his arms and just held me there for a few minutes. It was the strangest thing…I felt like I was “home.” Of course I never told him that. I didn’t understand it myself because I never felt that way with anyone.
If I ever have a man in my life again, I will know if he is “the one” if we both feel “at home” in each others arms, just being with each other. Ahhhhhhh! What a lovely dream.
