Greetings gentle readers.

A'Salaamu Aleikom

It has been a while since I last looked in here. Over the past weeks many things have changed, whether for the better? Only time will tell.

After my wife abandoned us, I continued reading the Qur'an. I was so devastated I was seeking solace, in any place I could find. I had not told her that I had been reading online, fearing ridicule and that I would lose her. In the end it didn't matter anyway. I am now a Muslim, (Sunni), taking Shehada on the 25th May this year. This decision does not in any way change who I am, or my basic beliefs in the rights and duties of the individual. I remain strong in my anti-violent beliefs and that every individual is deserving of Love, Respect, and Acceptance. Regardless of race culture or gender. I judge no one, only God has that right, and Allah (Subhanahu wa Ta'ala) knows best.

Last week my daughter went missing and was gone for five days. She finaly came home, and the person who enticed her away, now faces a secular justice that only other prisoners can administer to such people.

The support that I received from Muslims worldwide was overwhelming. Total strangers gave me the strength to continue my search. Unfortunately I ended up in Hospital on Sunday suffering severe chest pains. It seems my heart was trying to dance to Rap, while my body was doing a Waltz.

It seems that my daughter is suffering from a Major Manic episode as a result of her perceived rejection by her Mother. I have been told that preliminary results show Bi-Polar symptoms. This appears to be a common diagnosis among children of separated parents, where the child feels victimised by rejection. The end result usualy leads to the child rejecting the parent. This saddens me as I have done everything I can, to encourage her, to maintain a relationship with her Mother.

As for myself? I now believe that I am over the separation. I no longer need, or use, anti depressants and soon I expect to be moving to another house, leaving all the memories, both good and bad, behind me. As she does not desire reconcilliation, or even relationship counselling, and failing any response to these things, I will be divorced by the end of November this year. The choice is hers.

W'salaam gentle reader. My your God watch over you, and those you love, and protect you as you go about your daily life.