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And so it goes............. 4/16/2009 2:00:22 AM
I wrote good morning then realized that becasue I'm up when you read this it might not be morning. So, I', gong to say hi instead.
Have you ever said yes to so many things that you didn't know how you were going to finish all the things even if you had the ability to clone yourself? Of course you have and that just happened to me. I'd say for the past six weeks or a little better I've barely had a moment to breathe. The weight was on my shoulders pressing me down and eventually making me angry with myself for having agreed to all that I was doing and to be honest, I was annoyed with all the people who still wanted things from me when I told them many times that I was too busy with things I'd promised to do for several others.
Yes, I know you want me to read what you wrote, but do you think you could actually listen to me and respect my words and not just drop your chapters in my email.
That paragraph was a telling one wasn't it? The thing of it is I was more than willing to do this for several people had they been more respectful of my time. But it's a I need it now you must do it now mode that people are in.
It took me several years to finally get it why the published writers in our chapter stopped coming to meetings. And no, my message was not meant for any member of my chapter. It was meant for the people who do not view writing, my writing in particular as a job. Seriously, if I'm always reading the works of other just when do people think I have time to write my own work.
Yeah, I know this blog is a litany of complaints. The reason I'm writing all of it here is because I'm done with all of the overwhelming work I had to do. I finished last night. Oh I still have a little bit of tidying up, but it's not putting pressure on me. I've promised myself that I will not allow myself to get into this position again.
Am I saying I will not give help? Of course not, but I need to help Dyanne stay sane first. I will give help when I have the time and I will not allow anyone to pressure me into doing things I don't want to do or don't have the time for.
I sure hope you're not laughing, but I'm perfectly serious now. I don't drink. But the last couple of weeks not only did I think about, that I should start drinking. I thought about becoming an alcoholic.
Okay, go ahead and laugh. I don't blame you. That was a little extreme. But the thought did cross my mind. I have no idea what it would have solved and that's not any kind of a way for an adult to deal with their problems. From now on I will simply say, LEAVE ME THE FRAK ALONE.
I'll bet you wished I had taken a day before dumping this on you don't you. There now, I feel better. And see I don't really think of this as taking advantage of you because you can stop reading anytime you please. I just needed to write this.
