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That's What I Think 6/5/2012 8:28:11 AM
The wind begin to twitch, the house to pitch.....
Experiencing a windstorm today and it is rocking our little RV...rain coming down in sheets. Whew, I thought this part of Oregon had little to no rainfall! What a lie!! LOL.
I was taking my dog Luka for a potty run over at the larger "pet area" area. And he was taking a really long time to decide wether he would actually do his business or just pretend. I'm sure he does this to test my will...
But as I was standing there watching him sniff, looking for ookie things to eat. I felt a wave of panic! It felt like my legs wanted to give way and I would fall down. I'm not sure what this was... The pet area is large and right in the middle of nothing. Was the space too vast? Did I feel vulnerable in that space? I think so...I really didn't want to be there at that time so I was uncomfortable anyway. I think I felt a little like a target. Sheesh. I wanted to run away to the RV, but I also wanted Luka to pee/poop. I forced myself to stay and I didn't like it. I did what I usually do before I catch myself and thought what is wrong with me? Am I experiencing a stroke? I did take hold of myself and start the self talk and soothed myself. But got the heck out of there as soon as Luka was done. When I got back to the RV I was okay. Of course I was where I felt safe...
These moments can jump out at us at the most unexpected times...its best to let yourself say, "oh here I am again." Accept it and not berate yourself with negative words. Instead say positive things like, "Yay, I made it back to the Rv without incident." "Good for me!" "You did good."
Anyway...life in Boardman. Good? Bad? Indifferent? Not sure yet.
