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and so.... 2/23/2006 10:02:21 AM
I continue to cough, this cough from hell that will not go away, the weather gets better and I want to get out and run...but instead I stay in and hack away....
I hope most of you are healthy this year...I seem to have one year on and one year off. This is the year of the cold...everyone here seems to have it, won't go away and if it gets better, it just comes back in some other form. But what the hell, my hepatitis c is still in remission and my weight is under control, my daughter is behaving and the grandson has been accepted to Rolla School of Mines...all in all, life is good. Deb just about has all her legal stuff worked out, she is working and doing pretty good. She is looking for a second job, because one just doesn't cover her lawyer fee's, back child support, cell phone and then crime not only doesn't pay, you have to pay for it. She has a $600 victim's fee she has to pay, she has to pay $60 to get her community service job, and now you have to pay to be on probation. I agree with all of these things, in theory, but she is never going to get out from under all these costs and still find a place of her own, so I think she is going to be with me for awhile. This is fine as things are going right now, she is still grateful for a home and on good behavior. But I know there is a side of Deb that has nothing to do with her recent drug use, a Deb that will someday want to borrow my car, with no consideration for the consequences should she wreck it, which she invariably has in the past. She used to wait till I was asleep and take off with my car, sometimes getting back before I needed it again, fresh cigarette burns on the seat and trashed to all get out, but there. Sometimes she didn't. Maybe this isn't fair, that was years and years ago, she has grown up since then, right? We'll see. Right now she has no license so it isn't an issue. Some negatives work to my advantage. She also used to bring strange men home with her...I would stumble from my bed and into the bathroom, only to find some strange man urinating, stark naked and half asleep...needless to say, I wasn't thrilled. But we have an understanding now...my place is too small for company, even the watching tv kind and certainly not for any sleep overs. I understand that she is too young to eschew sex but she can certainly find a man who has his own apartment, most do by the time they reach the age she should be seeing. Am I borrowing trouble, worrying about things that will never be an issue? Maybe. But she is being so good lately, I guess I have to think of something to worry about cause things are very peaceful at home. I'm like that at times...or maybe I secretly miss the late night rendevous in the bathroom with srange men...God I hope not!
